Also..I forgot to mention this in my previous post... Is anyone interested in Eugene pride this weekend? I was thinking about going, and bringing henery along. Let me know if you have been thinking about going!

I have absolutely no motivation to work today...which is why I am letting myself post here during work...I am a horrible employee, but I am ok with this... its almost break time!!

hehe, amazing quote of the day:

Emily: Eryn it looks like the balloons are flipping off the stage. (referring to how the balloon I just tied was above the rest)

Me: Its ok, rainbows dont always have to be happy, they can be angsty too

Yesterday had some amazing quotes....

Me to Cat: "I hope Fivel is good in bed, I don't want to have to pick up her slack."

I couldnt stop laughing for a few minutes after I said that...


Me to Troy: "Feel the burn!!"
Troy's response: "The burn hurts!"


Amazing...I love my friends...

first lj post on the new macbook! It arrived today....so excited I almost dont know what to do with it! Its weird to have my own comp again!

AHHH I am going crazy without a computer! I a so close to just saying fuck it and getting a new one. Oh well...anyway....that is all...

So I have finally caught up on my sleep, it took me a few nights. Surprisingly going to bed at your normal bed time doesnt make you as tired as going to bed at say... midnight, maybe later. Interesting, huh? Rai has moved most of her stuff out, just odds and ends now. She has to come get her rat cage, sewing machine, and just other small stuff...I told her to get her stuff out asap after she said some pretty hurtful things while I was helping her move big stuff with the truck wednesday night. At this point I think she is almost on a mission to hurt me and make me feel bad. She says that the blame shouldnt be put on just one of us, but she sure is making it seem like she blames me for everything. What she said that hurt the most was "sometimes I wish I had never met you". Jesus! How can you say that to someone you just shared two years of your life with? I just didnt understand...Ok....enough of this...moving on to something else...

Last night was a good night, went out to dinner at Nearly Normals (my first time there actually). Had the nasty nachos which I highly reccomend, very tasty. Then we went to see shortbus, a film by the guy who did Hedwig. It was awesome! From the description it makes it seem like its all about sex, which in a way yes it is, but it goes alot deeper than that. It gets pretty personal in the lives of the characters. But yeah, if you arent embarassed by lots of nudity, I would go see it.

Ok...so I told Brian, my sisters boyfriend that I would post his pictures of him in drag for halloween. So here you go...my sister is in them too, shes dressed as a vet tech. Lol, btw...all the clothing he is wearing belongs to my sister too...kinda weird...






these were taken at an osu marching band party

Ok I wasnt quite sure which sex to choose...so here we go, I did both

Genghis Khunt Random Brutal Sex Master (RBSMf)     We almost called you Brutus the Uterus and attached this picture:     But we figured you wouldn't understand, and rightly so. We don't understand either. So you are Genghis Khunt: master of man, bringer of pain--riding your way to conquest after conquest.     Your sexual avarice is legendary. You've already had an unusually high amount of experience, and, still you look for more. You intimidate many. You make no apologies. Your exact opposite: The Sonnet Deliberate Gentle Love Dreamer     Personality-wise, you're carefree and relatively easy-going. You don't plan things out ahead of time; you tend to live in the moment. Of course, this can cause some damage when the moment happens to include a screaming orgasm with her younger brother. Hence the 'brutal' tag we've given you.     But you know what, take five seconds to lock the doors, and you'll be fine. There's nothing wrong with a little sex, or a whole lot. AVOID: The Sonnet CONSIDER: The Stiletto, Genghis Khunt, The Playstation Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.

and....

The Pool Boy Random Gentle Sex Dreamer (RGSDm)     Friendly and eager. You are The Pool Boy.     A teen at heart, you anxiously move about your daily tasks, hoping, praying for a good, instant lay. You're carefree, enthusiastic, and rarely discouraged. Love is cool, but it's not for you right now. You know what is? Crotches.     You're a fun person in both big and small groups, and your friends trust and love you. Inside you, meanwhile, your lust is only growing. Imagine your beating heart sprouting pubic hair. Exactly. Try shaving that. Your exact opposite: The False Messiah Deliberate Brutal Love Master     If you're not scoring enough--which you aren't--you should adopt new strategies. Lower your standards. Be aggressive. Pool Boys are often submissive and hope (desperately) sex will find them. Realize that passiveness will not hook the horny girls you desire. A bolder approach and sheer repetition will.     When browsing OkCupid, consider both The Dirty Little Secret and The Playstation. ALWAYS AVOID: The Battleaxe, The Priss Link: The 32-Type Dating Test by OkCupid - Free Online Dating.

I think I have come to the conclusion that mondays just suck in general, at least when it comes to work. Stupid mongo and his horrible programs, all they ever do is screw up your part. So tonight, I think I will end up drinking my dinner....mmm...beer.

So...tired...I was out waaay past my usuall bedtime last night. 11:00 is late for me, for the most part, I've fallen asleep by 9:30 on the couch, maybe before, and rai wakes me up when she opens the front door. But no, last night I went to the HRC thingy on campus for coming out day with Brazil, then off to interzone after that to hang out and talk. I had a really good time, it was nice to actually talk to someone about the things that are on my mind. Havnt been able to open up like that for a long time. So thanks melissa, that felt good. When I got home, rai was drunk. Not sure if its because of our phone conversation after the hrc thingy, or what. But it made me a little uneasy. And of course, she was all clumsy and couldnt find a comfortable position which kept me up until even later. I dont know when I actually fell asleep, but it was late. Then I woke up at 4am and just laid there until my alarm went off at 5. Work was ok, nothing bad really happend, just tired. Henery and I went out to fitten green for a walk today. It was nice, really hilly. He was a little bit of a turd and wouldnt follow my commands. Hes sitting by me right now giving me his "I'm a slut, pet me" eyes. So yeah, I had better do something with him before he drives me nuts. And my turkey burger is almost done....I hope everything goes well when rai gets home tonight. We'll see..

Oh boy...This sucks, its definitely monday. So around 9:45ish, I lose my left contact at work, and of course its my last one, and I broke my glasses a couple of weeks ago. Since I cant see out of both of my eyes, I was sent home with the hopes that I can get in to a eye doc today. The one thing thats been good is Henery was really happy to see me when I got home. So now I've been calling everywhere in corvallis, and they either dont have any openings for today, or they wont take my insurance. I had to call my old eye doc in St Helens to get my moms insurance info which I'm hopefully still on, otherwise I'm going to be broke! Fucking doctors are expensive! This is why we should have free healthcare! this also means that I have to take more sick time, which I have been using too much of lately, and I hate missing so much work. Yeah these are things I cant really prevent but it still sucks. Fucking mondays....I think I'm going to be really ready for bombs tonight. But still cant drink too much, rai has a late meeting at work so rides could be complicated.

On another note, I survived the family weekend. Everyone treated me ok, even asked about Rachael. I was really surprised. My Aunt Patsy still doesnt get it though. The fact that we are together that is. But thats probably for the best, shes one of those extreme religious types that is always asking me about if I go to church and how much she prays for everyone, and blah blah blah I'm a damn bible thumper...Sorry, I hate that crap.

Now I have about three hours till I have to be at the doc....dont know what I'm going to do....I just hope I dont have to pay $150-$250 just for the eye exam....fucking doctors...

I'm so glad its almost friday. It means I will soon be off work for a day and a half. But it also means that I have to go see family on saturday. I'm not looking forward to it as much as I was a week ago. But I've committed, and they are expecting me. I wish I could bring rachael along and not have to worry about how they would deal with that. Most of them know that I'm queer, and they met rai at thanksgiving last year, but I hardy ever see the extended family any more. Its hard to tell if they are accepting or not. I guess the fact that I'm still invited to functions says something, but its different when you come alone, or with your partner of almost two years. I just hate all the bullshit that surrounds our relationship, the bigoted assholes that my family can be. Whatever, I'm pretty happy down here in corvallis, away from all of them. I just wish my dad and sister were closer, I miss being around them.

Work is pretty stressful right now, my boss, Glenn, is on a rampage. He wants everything done faster. He really doesnt realize that we would be sacrificing quality, tooling, and possibly safety if we make parts faster. Yeah, granted he was an apprentice for a few years, but that doesnt mean he has the shop smarts needed to actually make shit. I bet if we let him loose to make parts, there would be nothing but scrap. And then we could all laugh at him and tell him just how much of a dumbass he really is. Everything with him is a knee-jerk reaction, it has to be done NOW no matter what the cost or the risk. I'm getting tired of it, tired of being thrown around job to job, of screwing up ( I seem to have hit a little bit of a slump), of being yelled at for shit I cant help. But hey...all I have to do is grow a thick skin right? At least thats what some of the guys tell me...

Ok, enough of work, I'm not there right now, so I'm not going to let it bother me, I'm just going to go get a drink..with alcohol...

Ok ok...so I broke down, and now I also have a livejournal. Lately I've been feeling the need to find someplace to vent, or get my thoughts down on something, where maybe I can get some feedback. So, when Henery (the pup) will let me sit down and actually type something with two hands instead of one handed while petting him, there might be something to read. Ok, the dog wont leave me alone...so for another day.